I’ve got a question for you – what really inspires you?
I’m not looking for the world peace, happy butterflies, kind of answers. I’m looking for the nitty gritty, deep down – what really inspires you?
I’ve been thinking about my answer to this question over the past day or so.
What has inspired me in the past? What would I like to be my inspirations in the future?
During the troubles of 2012, my biggest inspiration really was my kids. They were the reason why I got up each morning, the reason why I left the house, and the reason why I kept on fighting to get them home. Even when I would go to bed each night thinking, “I’m tired of fighting, I can’t do this any more.” But, I got up the next day and I kept trudging forward, one step at a time, for 18 months, until they were home.
That is one kind of inspiration. But what about the every day, mundane, get things done kind of inspiration?
Upon thinking about it, I realised that going through life, my biggest and most effective source of inspiration has been deadlines.
That’s right, having a deadline. Having a set point where I have to get things done by, whether it be writing an article for Pagan Pages, or writing a blog post, or getting something done around the house, does more to spur me towards getting it done than anything.
This is why I like doing projects like The Pagan Experience, because it gives me a set point for needing to get a blog post written each week.
As I look forwards into 2016, I am asking myself, do I want this to be my main point of inspiration, this looming deadline, oh my Gods panic!
No, not really. I want to find new ways of inspiring myself.
I want new things to be inspired by.
Some possiblilities spring to mind –
- The inspiration that comes from helping others.
- The inspiration that comes from successfully completing a task.
- The inspiration that comes from facing a fear and conquering it.
And ways of doing each of these things are also coming to me.
For instance, I recently completed a knitting project that I had been working on since last January. This has inspired me to do more knitting projects, and to try to figure out how to crochet.
In 2012, I faced my fears of losing my children and of being alone, and I got through it all and got my children back again.
Since then, I have been gradually facing my fears of allowing someone new into my life (sort that one out). And recently, out of nowhere, my inner voice said to me – you know what, you could go out on dates again, if you wanted to. Am I ready to go out on a bona fide date? I don’t know. But, I am open to the possibility of it happening. Which is more than I was able to say 6 months ago.
I think going forward, I am most excited about the work I am meant to be doing as a healer. I started up Sacred Visions in 2015 as a way of reaching out to women who are ready to start creating their own possibilities in life.
Soon after, I began hosting a monthly global cone of healing where anyone can contribute their own healing energies, prayers, thoughts, and wishes and anyone can sit in the cone and receive healing for themselves. Interest has gradually been increasing each month.
In 2016, I will take the next scary step and begin hosting invitation only women’s healing circles at home. These will be small groups of 4 – 6 women and together, we will create healing possibilities for each other.
Of course, I am also continuing my training in Soul Midwifery, and I am hoping to complete the final modules in 2016. Once that has been completed, I will begin offering that service as well to women who are transitioning from life into death, helping them to create their own possibilities for a good death.
What is inspiring you in 2016?